So.. Moving on..

I hate myself sometimes.

I hate taking decisions.. I always get carried away due to emotion.. or if the other person says something nice. Yeah, I totally melt.. my weakness, sweet words..

I hate this fact. I feel so stupid when I take wrong decisions, but then, who doesn’t?

But after all this, I can easily say I’ve learned from my mistakes. Not so much, but yes, a tiny bit. I’ve learned. I agree I was totally stupid before, and still am now.. But at least I know what NOT to do for certain things, if not for all.

Probably the most number of mistakes I’ve made have been in the case of relationships. In case of friends, and in case of love[or what I thought was love -.-] I’ve learned that some friends come.. make an impact on your life and go.. that’s just who they are. And one should learn to accept this fact and move on. I don’t know if I should say I’m lucky in this case or not, but I’ve just had one friend like this. He came, we had good times, he went. Simple. It took me almost a year to come to terms with the fact that he’s gone and won’t ever come back. This was the first time it had ever happened in my life, a sort of falling apart with a close friend. I’m not even sorry for how I behaved after that, I just didn’t know how to deal with it! On top of that the whole moving thing..

Moving on is fucking difficult [trust me, I know]. Without it, you’ll be left behind in this dark little place just full of your sorrows. You’ll become blind to all the happiness around you, all you’ll be able to see is the negative in all.. or probably nothing cuz the tears are blocking your view. I know how people say they’ll never be able to get over certain persons who’ve left their life, I said it myself.. but don’t worry, there will come a time in your life when you will be able to walk down a certain memory lane, full of memories of that one person, with a smile, and not tears. With pure happiness. That, will be when you’ve moved on. For the better..

I read this quote somewhere..

“You don’t stop loving a person. You just learn to love them less..”

I can’t agree more to it! There will always be a part of you that will miss that one special friend you had, or your ex. But with time, you’ll learn to make peace with that part. Gradually, the memories will fade. Slowly, you’ll realize you CAN live without those people. That you can smile. That you can meet new people and make new memories.

Moving on might be one of the most difficult tasks ever given to you by life, but it’s just as important. And if you cannot do it alone, don’t forget, you have your friends. They might not be able to understand the entire significance of the pain you feel, but true friends simply HATE seeing you in pain, and they’d do anything to see you happy..

So yeah.. move on.. Life is pretty, come out of that funk! Play with your baby sister, see her walk and talk for the first time!.. Drool over hot movie stars!.. Read your favorite book or watch your favorite movie, 10 times in a row!.. Cry, cry if it makes you feel better.1. Hog!.. Get a sexy new hairtstyle!

Anything, do absolutely anything that you think will make you feel better..

Who knows, you might find someone even more special after that? ;)